Monday, August 3, 2009

Taken from StonoCaves (edgeofyourbed.blogspot.com)

One

Rules: Don't take too long to think about it. Fifteen books you've read that will always stick with you. First fifteen you can recall in no more than 15 minutes. Tag friends.

1. Geek Love by Katherine Dunn
2. Invisible Monsters by Chuck Palahniuk
3. Angels & Demons by Dan Brown
4. Whispers by Dean Koontz
5. Les Miserables by Victor Hugo
6. The Little Prince by Saint De-Exupery
7. Death With Interruptions by Jose Saramago
8. Choke by Chuck Palahniuk
9. Lullaby by Chuck Palahniuk
10. Valiant by Holly Black
11. The Saga of Darren Shan by Darren Shan
12. The Demonata by Darren Shan
13. The Memory Keeper's Daughter by Kim Edwards
14. World Without End by Ken Follett
15. My Antonia by Willa Cather

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Two

Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to 10 people you like. You can't use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think! Repost as "my life according to (band name)"

Pick your artist: Fall Out Boy :)
Are you a female: Don't You Think I Know Who I Am?
Describe yourself: The (Shipped) Gold Standard
How do you feel: Golden
Describe where you currently live: Of All the Gin Joints in the World
If you could go anywhere, where would you go: The Carpal Tunnel of Love
Your favourite form of transportation: Dance Dance
Your best friend is: She's My Winona
You and your best friend are: America's Suitehearts
Favourite time of day: I Don't Care
If your life was a TV show, what would it be called: What A Catch, Donnie
What is life to you: 7 Minutes In Heaven (Atavan Heaven)
Your relationship: I Slept With Someone In Fall Out Boy and All I Got Was This Stupid Song Written About Me
Your fear: The Music and The Misery
What is the best advice you have to give: Get Busy Living Or Get Busy Dying
How would you like to die: 20 Dollar Nosebleed
Your soul's present condition: Hum Hallelujah
Your motto: Champagne For My Real Friends, Real Pain For My Sham Friends

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Thoughts Under The Stars

At night, when the time ticks by to almost the next day, I always lie awake in my bed with my iPod on and the buds in my ears. Those are the times that I feel so alone, so by myself, and my mind pulls away from reality as I try to drift off into unconsciousness. Like last night.

It was then and there that I completely forgot that I knew the English language and that I completely forgot all the translations for the songs that I didn't understand.

Those are the times that I really listened. Not with my mind, but with everything else.

And I felt, literally just felt, my heart aching whenever I listened to the slow songs. When I heard just the saddening melodies and the pained voices, I realized that I really wasn't alone. There were other people who felt the same loneliness that I did, and they were there with me, when I needed them most. No thoughts, no attachments, no self-pity. Just agonizing, piercing realization that I was there, while everyone else had somewhere to be, and I couldn't force myself to sleep no matter how much I tried.

My eyes stared at a dark ceiling.

Yeah, my heart was still giving me a dull pain, but I felt those every night. The nights where I couldn't talk to my friends because I had to be offline. Were those the reasons why it hurt?

I checked the time in Tokyo. Some late afternoon/early evening. In my head, all that went through is the GazettE will be performing soon. Somehow, that made me a little bit sadder. It was definitely confusing, feeling melancholy yet contentment at the same time.

But I realized that I like where I am, even if I want more. That feeling was what lulled me to sleep, more so than the sweet lullaby filling my ears.