Bath Room - the GazettE

眠れないのは何故？静けさに酔いしれてた
湿った部屋で一人また　口ずさめば戯しく
眠れないのは何故？あなたが見えたから
視点は濡れた床　頭をかしげて眠ってる

知りたくもないような現実にただ無感情で
声も出さずずっと　瞬きすら忘れて　あなたに見とれていた

眠ってしまいたい　目覚めだけを恐れて
全てを忘れたい　身勝手な戯言ね
貴女の名前を呼ぶ　寡黙に気がふれる
痩せたかたを掴み叫んだ　か細過ぎた温もりに

知りたくもないような現実に深く心溺れ
唇を噛み堪えた涙さえ　意味が無いとしった

立ち尽くす僕の背後の声
吐き出す理由など　どうでもよかった
ただ　目の前のあなたがとても寂しそうな顔で
何一つ出来なかった　自分を死ぬ程憎んだ

名前をくれた唯一のあなたへ　このまま傍に居てくれないか
そう　僕にとって最後の優しき「母」

白い壁にそっと　真っ赤な絵の具であなたを縁取った
まだ暖かい頬をすり寄せて　静かに笑ってみせよう
目蓋を閉じ　温もりが消える頃　僕はあなたの傍で

Can You Keep A Secret?

Because I know I can't.

So this will be just between me and you.

We live once.

We love once.

We die once.

And I died with you.

Don't burn your heart out, love.

When I look at my Geometry class, it's kind of weird. Only way I could put it.

It makes me feel kind of lonely, you know? I don't have anybody I talk to during the long periods of time I have to spend in there with the exception of people that converse with me to get assignments for other classes. It's not like I don't try; people just find me too weird for their tastes, I guess.

Everybody else has somebody with them and they just keep on talking and talking. While they're all doing that, I'm usually doodling or doing work. About two to three weeks of school have passed and I don't feel any better than I did in freshman year. The people in my grade know who I am, but it only goes up to that. Makes me feel kind of disconnected and alienated in a sense.

Oh well.